Let's Bury Our Souls

Aaagh. GRKLEJKSEKL. D':

I've been feeling pretty okay lately, really good, actually. And why does life decide to crash on me now? Not everything's crashing, exactly. Just all that I love.

Grace feels like starting fresh, moving to a new school. Mideya might permanently move to Florida. Elizabeth wants to move cuz she can't handle everything in this school. I bet Melissa might move too. And they know I can't be alone, I can't! Apparently they don't understand. I thought Elizabeth did but...

No. I'm just being selfish again. For my own selfish needs, yes. I need them, need them all. Or else...I don't know. I don't want to know. If they leave me all alone again, I just know I'll trip over my own two feet, without them there to catch me. I'll just tumbled, tumbled, fall deeper into the darker parts of myself. And life will be all dull, black-and-white like it used to be. I don't want that to happen! I don't want to have to wear long-sleeved shirts everyday, in the SUMMER. I don't want to be depressed again!

Sabrina...:P

She's so...It's like...Wow. x]

I just wouldn't of expected to fall for her the way I did. And it's so weird how I feel around her, like it's not happening, like it's a dream. Like I'm watching myself go through all the motions, not feeling myself do it. I'm not sure if I like it. I wish I could slap myself to wake me up. But then I'm afraid that reality would hurt me. I feel numb...sometimes numb is better.

The thing is, with Sabrina, I'm not afraid. I'm not afraid of rejection, because I know it's not a possibility. We practically share a mind, and I mean this literally. We have the same thoughts, seriously! Same facial expressions. Same odd noises. Same hair, same eye-sight (sorta), same music taste...And so when I do something, like I did today for example intertwining my leg through her's under the table, leaning into her, teasing her on purpose. I don't think about rejection at all. It feels nice. And she doesn't either, apparently. She does what she wants. She bit me today. :3
And she came up behind me while I was sharpening my pencil and placed her arms on either side of me, leaning into me. It feels so nice to know I'm loved like that. To love and be loved in return. It's unlike any other feeling, NOTHING can compare.

Thinking about Sabrina made me feel better. Baha. x]

Okay...I have to fold my clothes now [-.-'] so...bai.