My Heart Is A Chew Toy

Owww. My heart. Gah, I forgot to post the day that she asked me out. It was...amazing. Like, it was right before school, and I was just checking my MySpace real quick, and I saw her name in my inbox and I was like, "Heee." And then I read her mail and I was like, "HEEEEEE!!!!!" I couldn't even breathe or think or anything! I just knew that she wanted me all of a sudden. And so of course I said yes.

But then...but then...:'(

It's too tragic to even mention. D':

For some reason, I don't know which, she said she thought it wasn't going to work out. She likes being single. I was like, ":O. Okay..."

Honestly, who likes being single? Not meeee. Not Sabrina. I don't think anyone does, except her. If she doesn't want to go out with me, why couldn't she just say it? Because she's afraid of hurting me? I have been hurt waaaay worse, so don't you worry.

The most I did was cry. After she left. If she saw me cry she'd probably die. She looked really hurt from just telling me. I cried when Vivi asked what was wrong. She asked what was wrong and I moaned and covered my face with my arm. She hugged me and rubbed my back 'n stuff, comforting me. But she couldn't mend my heart. Iknowitsoundsemoshaddap.

And then Kelly came by asking what was wrong, and I told her and then I just started to cry. Not sobbing, bawling crying. Just, tears started to slip from my eyes, and I started laughing. I laugh when I don't know what else to do. When she first told me, I refused to believe her, and instead of reacting I just sorta laughed.

Eh, I guess I'm over it now. We can still be friends and all. She was really nice to me this morning, like, "Hiiiii!" in the sweetest voice I've ever heard her speak in. I'm still in love with her, yes. But I can get over the fact she doesn't want me. I can. I shall. I...>.<

Plus, Sabrina...Yeah, I sorta...like her? Again? Dx

I kindasorta asked her out, but not exactly. I just said, "So, ur single, and im single..." And she wrote, "IDK."

But she said she'd kiss me?

At art time?

But guess WHAT? We had this stupid buttface subsititute whom I wanted to smash her fugly face through a window, and she only allowed one at a time to the bathroom. GRRRAH.

Is it wrong when you JUST broke up with your girlfriend to go to someone else right after? It makes me feel like such an ass, but...I mean, Sabrina said she still liked me. And I sorta still like her. And she's there for me and stuff and...

Plus, I really need to teach her how to kiss. xD