Hm...I am feeling...odd. Different. Well, different than I have in a while. Because usually I'm feeling depressed and self-loathing. Right now, I'm feeling pretty okay. There's some delicious scent coming from somewhere and I dunno where it is and I want to find out. It's so sweet smelling.
Today, our lips were inches from each-others, and all I had to do was lean in and...But my heart was pounding, and I felt eyes on me from everywhere even though no one was looking. It makes me nervous, paranoid, but oh so comforted to be that close to her face. And her eyes were just...penetrating. They were so full of...something. I couldn't exactly place it, the look. Something between longing, love...eh.
I'm in a poem-y mood, but I can't find the appropriate place to share my beautiful imaginative mind. xD
gSm doesn't seem to be in a poem-appreciating mood, so...:P
I should've just leaned, just closed the space. Just do it, what's to be afraid of? I honestly have nothing to lose, teachers already hate me, and everyone already knows I like her. So, why not, you know? I was just so afraid for some reason, my heart was pounding and the air didn't go down my throat easily. But I want to kiss her so bad. And I won't be able to go to Roller Kingdom with her, so I wouldn't be able to kiss her there. Damn damn damn this.
Oh, why won't she love me? That's all I really want now, is for her to love me like I'm falling for her. I look at her face and...smile. I smile and blush, I'm sure. And when our eyes meet, this feeling just...bubbles...in me. Oh, how I long for her. To just reach out and touch her, hug her, lean on her. I want her to be mine and no one else's.
Selfish me. Oh-so selfish. But I want her. I want her just...so...much. She has no idea. >.< Today was a fun day. I made Mideya laugh really hard today. Elizabeth was, like, stroking her pizza, so I exclaimed, "What're you doing to that poor thing!?" and then what do you know, milk spurted from Mideya's mouth, and all over my pizza. >:[
But that was okay because I got to see Mideya spit milk everywhere. :D
Today, our lips were inches from each-others, and all I had to do was lean in and...But my heart was pounding, and I felt eyes on me from everywhere even though no one was looking. It makes me nervous, paranoid, but oh so comforted to be that close to her face. And her eyes were just...penetrating. They were so full of...something. I couldn't exactly place it, the look. Something between longing, love...eh.
I'm in a poem-y mood, but I can't find the appropriate place to share my beautiful imaginative mind. xD
gSm doesn't seem to be in a poem-appreciating mood, so...:P
I should've just leaned, just closed the space. Just do it, what's to be afraid of? I honestly have nothing to lose, teachers already hate me, and everyone already knows I like her. So, why not, you know? I was just so afraid for some reason, my heart was pounding and the air didn't go down my throat easily. But I want to kiss her so bad. And I won't be able to go to Roller Kingdom with her, so I wouldn't be able to kiss her there. Damn damn damn this.
Oh, why won't she love me? That's all I really want now, is for her to love me like I'm falling for her. I look at her face and...smile. I smile and blush, I'm sure. And when our eyes meet, this feeling just...bubbles...in me. Oh, how I long for her. To just reach out and touch her, hug her, lean on her. I want her to be mine and no one else's.
Selfish me. Oh-so selfish. But I want her. I want her just...so...much. She has no idea. >.< Today was a fun day. I made Mideya laugh really hard today. Elizabeth was, like, stroking her pizza, so I exclaimed, "What're you doing to that poor thing!?" and then what do you know, milk spurted from Mideya's mouth, and all over my pizza. >:[
But that was okay because I got to see Mideya spit milk everywhere. :D
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